I feel like the last week or so has been a big, long sighing out-breath for me. The previous 3 weeks had been very taxing and had taken me mentally and emotionally away from myself and my center. I had literally been holding my breath for weeks on end, having to make really conscious efforts to properly fill my lungs with air. In fact I was holding on so hard that my body became twisted and painful and I couldn't turn my head for 11 days.
But I was supported by wonderful people around me near and far, who helped me to gently let go and find my center again. My friend who is a wonderful osteopath treated me and showed me it was ok to crumble and I allowed myself to crumble into the arms of my best friend who had come to stay with her delightful, gorgeous wee son.
Then another friend of mine and I made a pact together to do one thing each day, just for ourselves. Whatever it is should be nourishing to the heart, body or soul. It could be a good cup of coffee, a long, hot bath, dancing to your favourite song, yoga, whatever as long as it's soul food. At the end of each day we text each other to recount what we did. It's going well so far and I am really enjoying giving myself something special in each day (is this a gift you could give yourself?)
|one of 3 rainbows that all appeared at the same time outside my house|
Breath is something that connects us all, no matter where we are or what we are doing. I can breathe out with friends on the other side of the world, I can breathe out with friends who are sleeping right now, in pain, in love. I breathe out and connect with those who give me strength and I am so grateful. We are all breathing out and in thinking about this I have never felt so connected to people, the world.
Breathe out with me. Right now. In this moment. We are all doing it together :-)
So I am re-claiming my life again, not being so consumed with the separation, not waiting for it all to be over for my life to begin again. I am allowing myself back into me and the kids are coming along, very happily dancing back to this place, here under rainbows.
|Jack, the worlds most tolerant and resigned stray tom|
Rebe made this brilliant sea turtle last week. She was given a reading book about turtles at school and was totally taken by them. This is the kind of 'after-schooling' that I relish. Finding something that interests them and running with it and supporting and supplementing the learning that she does at school. We found this great film on youtube and watched it a few times and we also found another book in the library which is being devoured.
she even has a tiny bear
I hope that you have a good weekend and remember do something nice just for yourself. You deserve it :-)